confused

It's funny how even when I'm having a hard time, I'm not allowed to have a hard time. I somehow can't let myself show that I need someone to talk to or need some guidance or help or just comfort in situations. Literally, when I am upset (sad, mad, whatever) I smile. It's like my way of letting myself know that I can't show how I truly feel. And it's a reflex. When I'm mad at someone, I can't even control it, I just start smiling.  The thing is, when I'm having a hard time, I know that other people are too, and I don't...

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Control

Something that I personally find very frustrating about life is that just when you are starting to feel in control of yourself and your life, life reminds you that ultimately you cannot have a firm grasp over all aspects of living, and regrettably to subject yourself to sociological and biological rules. Since coming back from spring break I have been very good about going to the gym and eating good healthy meals, at the expense of my rest. As a result, I found myself getting sick earlier this week, but rather than attacking...

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Opportunity

Sometimes I think about how far I have come in life, and realize that I am extremely blessed to be where I am. I had the opportunity to be involved in sports and music as a child, and was able to join organizations in high school that increased my chances of getting into a good college, and I was given the chance to work hard at my grades and be at the top of my class. I realize that this is something to be thankful for, and I respect those who do not have the same opportunity as I do yet make it far in life with many successes. But...

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Introduction

Hi, this is Hanna. On my old blog, I found that my posts were most often very angry or selfish and that I was using it as a way to justify my venting instead of as a way to reflect on things that have been on my mind, which had been my original intention. I also found it becoming increasingly messy, with both personal and kpop posts on one blog, so I decided to split it into two new blogs and start fresh, hoping to make things more organized. So far I have been regularly updating my kpop blog and have been enjoying keeping...

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